Step 1
The accumulation of 'stuff ' from 37 years of marriage, 5 children and now 5 grandchildren and the prospect of sorting , decluttering and packing before what is probably going to be our last big move has become so overwhelming that my brain keeps freezing. That either panics me or depresses me so I've been avoiding it altogether.
Where do I start? What do I decide to keep? Why have I got it all anyway? Do I really want to keep all these reminders of what is behind me now? All those planned projects that never eventuates? All those flights of fancy and whims that propped me up at times I really need to forget?
Thinking about the job ahead had become all consuming...almost obsessional. What if I got rid of something I later wish I'd kept? Will I someday regret not keeping things I have collected with a particular project in mind? Should I keep stuff that might mean something to one of my children or grandchildren later in life? Would they resent me for making a decision to part with pieces of their history? How do I know what will be important to them later in life anyway? Would they even realize I had it in the first place?
I decided I need to make a plan. Decide for once and for all how to go about this. Commit to it and move on.
Writing it down is going to serve three purposes. The first is to get it out of my head and away from my emotions and the second is to keep me on track. The third is so I can read this later on to remind me why I have done want I am about to do and that is........
GET RID OF EVERYTHING AND START AGAIN.... Or almost everything.
I feel a bit bad saying this when there are dozens of families up north who have lost everything to the QLD floods but I have to tell myself thinking like that is another trick my emotional mind is playing on me. I have always over analysed everything and that is toxic.
